God

I can smell God in the wet dirt after rain. I can see God in sunsets. I can feel God in cool river water. I know that God is the totality of all of that—God is every smell and feeling, every breath and song. God lives in my pain and is my mourning as much as my joy—God understands me because God is all of that. God is living every moment with me, every joy and every pain, and in that sense, God loves. God loves me because God is with me and in me. God wants my life to be better as much as I do… and God wants everyone’s life to be better as much as everyone does. God wants to see and feel happiness, joy, and community as much as we do, because God is what we create and God creates with us. God is seeking perfection in Creation as much as we are—God just knows better how to Be and Create in this world because God can see and experience reality in its totality. God, dwelling inside each of us, calls us to act in ways that are best for us, for each other, for all.

When we center ourselves, when we listen, we know what those things are—treating others kindly, living respectfully and sustainably, forgiving people’s faults, trying our best not to falter, living unselfishly so that our selfishness doesn’t prevent, in some domino effect, someone else’s happiness.
Those are things I know, yet cannot prove. I could argue that all of those things are acting against natural selection. I cannot draw from a math equation or a scientific theory to prove those elements of my “knowledge.” In that sense, those “knowledges” (if I may call them such) are faith. It is precisely because I have faith in such things that I believe there is a God. God is the interconnection and wants us to see It.

I think I do see it. I think I see it and it makes me want to cry… Cry with joy? Cry with sorrow? I don’t know, but I think it’s both.